And it all falls down.

I hope it didn’t hurt this much.

I wanted to show you that I couldn’t care less, but it’s hard because we both know how much you mean to me. 

And as much as I want this to last, I don’t see any reason to stay anymore..

But I know that I have got to keep myself together. It’ll take time.. I need time.. no rush, but… we have to move forward.. just keep moving forward ‘cause there’s nothing to look back to.

Can’t be friends.

And then it hit you again..

I thought I was over it, I really thought I was until I had the chance to go through all of it, again. I know I shouldn’t have done it, but you can never blame someone’s need to know things. I want to know what’s real, so I can move on.. So we can finally move on..

I even thought you were over it too, but I knew I was just trying to convince myself. In fact, I know we were just trying to convince ourselves that it’s over and that it doesn’t matter anymore.

Deep inside you, I know you still think about it and I know it bothers you as much as it bothers me.

I guess you never gave yourself enough time to let go of things, to let go of what you had.. I guess the pain still lingers somewhere in you heart, I know it does.. And  I know it’ll be forever there, but I can’t wait forever. You can’t keep me waiting forever.. I need you to reassure me that I’m wrong, that I’m just assuming things. Tell me I’m crazy for thinking this way, but you gotta admit that it still matters because I still feel you holding back..

When you finally had the chance to let go of what’s not right.. I know I’ll be happy again with just a chosen few.